My first boyfriend is officially engaged

I think that means I'm officially old. :P

And so is this xanga, jeez.

So, chances are, I will be riding/presenting elephants in Cole Bros. Circus this summer!

I'm so excited I just spilled coffee on myself.

I'm also supposed to be studying for exams. Which I will get back to. Shortly.

Being an elephant empress (yes, that is what they are sometimes called) has been on my "life goals" list since I was 7. I kid you not.When Eli, Erin, Brittany and I made a circus in my backyard, we covered the playschool push-car with a gray sheet and made ears and a nose out of construction paper and I rode it while Eli and Erin pushed it.

(Side Note: I'm sitting at Logan's desk in his old room and I found a big long nail but I don't want to touch it because I know it's been up his nose.)

I could also go into a long explanation about how the sideshow last summer and the circus this coming summer is probably the closest anyone will ever get to actually running away with the Doctor and his TARDIS but I'll save that for another time. (Seriously, obsessed)

I had to fill out my own life insurance policy this week. I feel like such a grown-up! Ha. The phone-interview part was only supposed to be a 30 minute call... mine was an hour and a half because my medical history is so... involved. It was absurd. I also had to tell a white lie about my employment (circus performer isn't really the safest job) so that I could lock in a lower premium. Oh well.

ALSO, today I learned that one of the kids I graduated with recently starred in the movie Project X and is now working on another major Hollywood film. Also, my junior high crush just got drafted into the NFL. So basically, I need to step-the-fuck-up and do something interesting/exciting/important with my life. lol

Alright, I suppose that's enough procrastinating now... plus Josh just brought me coffee and popcorn so now I HAVE to work.

Goodnight anyone who somehow happens to read this.

Go find less obscure corners of the internet now. :P

My Doctor Who obsession is unhealthy and out of control.

I Love...

Circus

Australia

Doctor Who

Sherlock Holmes

Halloween

The Game Risk

Coffee

My Puppy

Carnivals

My Tumblr is pretty much a compilation of all of those things. Plus a dash of feminism and cup and a half of sarcasm.

lol

I can work with you because I'm a professional.

But we are not friends and don't you dare try to talk to me like we are.

You may be lucky enough not to remember what happened that night, but I do. In detail. In the 4 years since then I've come to realize that being drunk doesn't excuse what you tried to do or what you did. You should never have gotten that drunk. At 30 years old you should have known your own limits.

I was 18 and naive.

I didn't understand... I had never been drunk. I wasn't expecting to have to be on my guard. To protect myself.

I'm not without blame. I know that. I think about it constantly.

But you don't. You don't have to. You don't even remember.

I've kept my mouth shut. I'm not out to ruin your life, your reputation or your relationships. Call me a bitch. Fine. You can fill in whatever blanks you like to explain why I won't talk to you, refuse to look at you. I'll keep the truth to myself.

And I know this... I am so much stronger than you will ever be. I am a better person than you could ever dream of being. No one is going to save you until you care to save yourself. You prey on the weak, the young, the innocent... and it's pathetic.